Seems like it was yesterday
That you and I were okay
Words have been said
Hearts got wounded
But all I wanted was just for you to stay
So please tell me baby what to do
‘Coz right now I’m stuck here without you
Maybe I was wrong
to start the fight
Maybe I was lost and didn’t treat you right
If you choose to walk away
I would still try
Because someday I know that love will always find a way.
“Sometimes I wonder if maybe we’ll ever get back together, and then I realize that we’ll never really be over, in a way it hasn’t changed, but in some ways, it has, it’s not that we aren’t meant for each other, I think it’s just maybe we aren’t ready for forever.”
“You never realize how much you like someone until you watch them like someone else.”
How do I start again? I don’t have the words to say no more. I am really confused. Speechless. The person I looked up before, now seems like a shadow trying to dwell and suck out all of my dreams. Vengeance. I thought it was a bit different but then I realized that it was like what we just see everyday. So much expectations. Nothing ordinary.
Time ticked. Ember-colored bliss drifted me away. Nothing was left.
How many times do we need to fall? How many times do we need to stand up and fight for our love? Every thing in this world is dynamic. Expect less so that it won’t hurt.
“When people all stare I’ll pretend that I don’t hear them talk. Whenever I see you, I’ll swallow my pride and bite my tongue, pretend I’m okay with it all, act like there’s nothing wrong.”
It is so hard but I have to. I found that nothing really lasts forever. We don’t know it but we are all pawns in the game of love. Some will lose, and some will win. Some has to give way and sacrifice for the sake of triumph and happiness. But we learned it the hard way. And at some point, if some things keeps on happening, maybe it only teaches us one thing — that we are still not trying to accept what has to be accepted and needed to be learned.
But when the world transpires, sometimes the things you want the most don’t happen, and what you least expect happens. I don’t know - you meet thousands of people and none of them really touch you. And then you meet that one person, and your life is changed.
And then it was you. I was so afraid. I love you. I used to love you. You love me. You used to love me. We both fell and fell out. I am so afraid to let go because this love was too strong.
I tried to hold on and now all of a sudden, things are starting to get clearer and clearer. Someone made me realize if it’s worth it and believed it is not anymore so I made a vow and will keep that vow. I thought it was all true but I was wrong. I messed up. Everything was all a lie. And now, the game’s over.
And when you’re needing your space to do some navigating. I’ll be here patiently waiting to see what you find. Because even the stars they burn some even fall to the earth. We’ve got a lot to learn. God knows we’re worth it. No, I won’t give up. I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily. I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make. Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use. The tools and gifts we got, we got a lot at stake. And in the end, you’re still my friend at least we did intend. For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn. We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in. I had to learn what I’ve got, and what I’m not and who I am
I won’t give up on us even if the skies get rough.
I’m giving you all my love.
I’m still looking up.
I don’t know what to do. I am so confused about us. About you. About me.
I didn’t intend. I never did. And I am sorry. I really am.
Honestly, deep down inside me it’s you I wanted.
I never would have wished to be with someone else anymore but I had to lie because I know that’s all you wanted. You pushed me away. It hurts inside me and it really feels like hell but I had to be strong. Because I know you won’t listen. You will never will.
Right now, I am so alone. I was thinking and wishing that we could be still together.
Maybe you really like someone else. Maybe you love or perhaps love someone still but it kills me to tell you that I already have someone else too where in fact there’s none.
I don’t want but I have to. I had to. I don’t want to lose you again for the third or fourth time but I did, again. That’s all because of me. But I love you so. That’s all I know and God knows how much I really do. It’s not only you who’s suffering.
What we used to will never come back. I am no longer hoping but I would still wait. Wait ‘til the heartache is gone and wait ‘til it fades. I love you and I will always do because no matter how much I try to deal with it, I still can’t stand and find myself to be with someone else. And at the top of it, letting you go is one of the hardest things I have to do. And I will regret it until my last breath.
As a cliche, “nasa huli lagi ang pagsisisi”. I love you still. *cry*
101.) I want to throw everything away just like what you did. Yet I still wanted to play the guitar I stole for you.
What should I do about it? :| Leche.
It was him not fighting for me. I gave him the ultimatum and he let me walk away. I didn’t want a life separate from him, and thats all he could give me. It’s like he’s driving a car and I just want to be in the passenger seat. He’s locked the door and I have to hold onto the bumper. I am not even asking him to open the door for me, just leave it unlocked and say come in, but he didn’t do that. So I am hanging on to the bumper and life goes on. And the car goes on and I get really badly bruised and I’m hitting potholes and it hurts, it really hurts. so yesterday I had to let go of the bumper because it hurts too much.
Patapos na ang summer, matatapos na rin ba ang summer job mong panlalandi?
It’s been three years and all of a sudden you’ll text me. Maybe you are still wondering but I will never get back to you. You were once a mistake so why should I repeat it. Fuck all those guys who flirt and fuck all those who lied.
neverbelievedforitwasallalie
(Source: youjustinspiredme, via ifonlyyoukneww)
Honestly, I’m not sure if I should just keep holding on or let go. It’s stupid to hold on to something that just keeps you hurting but it’s also stupid to let go of everything you’ve ever wanted.
